Yesterday, I worked without stopping. As a matter of fact, I didn’t take my normal breaks that come with my usual lame excuses. I was truly on fire! Yeah! [Chuckle] I know! I just thought about Alicia Keys’ song “This Girl is On Fire” also.
Gosh, I hope I don’t have that song playing in my head all day. Not that I don’t like it . . . But I just don’t want it playing in my head all day! You know what I mean! I hope I didn’t cause you to start singing ‘This Girl is On Fire’ in your mind either. Laughter! Well back to the subject at hand.
I woke up early this morning but I didn’t rise early but I stayed in bed. I watched a movie I would have never watched had I not had the blues. Truth is I didn’t know I had the blues. It’s been with me for so long that I feel my temporary sad state on Monday mornings is the norm.
Honestly, I just thought I was struggling with a mild case of depression. But what is truly happening is my soul is lamenting over a loss or in my case losses. And when I lost whatever meant so much to me I didn’t mentally and emotionally process the situation(s) to satisfy my soul’s thirst to be spiritually feed. I didn’t supplement things needed for my hungry soul to feel feed in wholeness.
So this morning as I waited for the feelings of sadness to leave I laid in bed and watched a movie that added to my sadness. I wonder how many other people lay in bed on Monday morning. I wonder how many people are faced with sadness of yesterday. I wonder do they realize they have the power to change things for the better despite missed opportunities. I wonder do they ever try to go within their wounded souls and hug the person that loves them.
Until today I never realized why I am sad on Monday mornings. I was once told by a dear and old friend, “Once you know something it gives you power to make changes.” Therefore, the change I am making now is my attitude. I am going to search for reasons within me, all day, about why I should be happy oppose to why I should allow my soul to continue to lament over missed opportunities.
For after all I am blessed and there is no one in my life that I would want to change places with.
¹²While Jesus was in one of the town, a man came along who was covered with leprosy. When he saw Jesus, he fell with his face to the ground and begged him, “Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean.” ¹³Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. “I am willing.” he said. “Be Clean!” And immediately the leprosy left him. 14Then Jesus ordered him, “Don’t tell anyone, but go, show yourself to the priest and offer the sacrifices that Moses commanded for your cleansing, as a testimony to them.“
Lord, some people talk too much because they want other’s to hear their “know it all” speeches; then again some people talk too much because of nerves chatter; and, then, Lord, some people talk too much because of self-absorption. But this prayer is for those that talk to much because of emotional and mental pain that overflows into their daily conversations.
Lord, help the person that is in emotional or mental pain to see that you enter into their lives everyday. Lord help them to understand you know their spirits are filled with worries. Let them know Lord they are no different from the man with leprosy when it comes to your unyielding love for your creation. Lord, allow them to feel your presence; and gently convey to their spirits that you stand waiting to heal their brokenness. Lord, give them the words to ask in prayer for guidance and healing as they create a dialogue between you and them.
I am asking for you to do these things Lord because: I have found those that unwittingly share life experiences have been greatly wounded. And because of their sorrows I come humbly before your Throne of Grace. So, once again, Lord, I am asking for divine healing for those that talk too much as they try to ease their emotional and mental pains. Lord, I ask that they find a true friend in you. Lord, I pray that you begin to peel the layers of untold anguish from their unconscious minds. Exposing their raw emotions for what they are as you help them to deal with each heartache privately. For in lessening their spiritual suffering they can find hope. And in finding hope they will find wisdom in who to share your blessings among and their tribulations with.