With Thanksgiving quickly approaching I am at a lost for a dinner menu.
Honestly, I am so over turkey and dressing, collard greens, black-eyed peas, mashed potatoes covered in turkey gravy, corn, candy yams and sweet potato-pie with a dollop of cool-whip. But if I met one person that has never feasted on such a lavish Thanksgiving meal I would find the strength to prepare it and cultivate an appetite to eat it once again.
Yesterday my cousin Theresa told me I was not the person she once knew. She said, “You’ve changed.” She went on to express how she remembered my tearful outbursts and moments later how I would be extremely happy, or short-tempered. Honestly, I had forgotten those moments and the young woman that felt life was not worth living. And I find it spiritually amazing how God will allow others to remind you of days gone by. And how the kindness of others helped transformed your life during difficult moments. As a result of my transformation I am grateful for all things.
So today I am taking the time to search for and post inspiring messages to help someone along the way. If the message I share is not for you please pass it on. You never know who will need words of encouragement. So to kick off my inspirational Friday messages is the below video of a businessman’s compassion for humanity.
Lord, I went to sleep way too early yesterday evening. And when I woke I was at a lost. I wasn’t sure what to do with my time. So I began to search for a young man who was on my heart. When I could not find him I decided to read post on my Facebook account. And then Lord I came across the below post of a friend that is fighting cancer:
Sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes & disappear….
Lord, I responded with: “If you could do that then I would miss you; and the world would be minus a remarkable woman. Sending you a hug from the beautiful state of Colorado.”
Lord, I don’t know the ramifications of her health challenge but you do. I don’t know how strong her emotional and mental support system is, but you do. And, Lord, I don’t know how supportive her medical team is, but you do. But I do know Lord, her illness and concerns are bigger than she and I can handle, therefore, I am bringing them to you.
Please Lord, give her your courage. I’m asking that peace be still in her life. I’m praying that joy won’t wait to visit but that it will stop by today and continue to visit everyday. I’m asking Lord that you give her body the strength to fight for wellness. I’m praying Lord that you will put a joyful song in her heart; and give her unmovable faith in your abilities. I’m praying for her medical team. I’m asking Lord that she has the best doctor’s in her state, city, or town giving her medical attention. I’m asking Lord that she has favor with each medical staff that comes across her path. I’m asking for emotional blessings for her family, friends, and loved ones. I’m asking Lord that you please hold her hand and let her know you are walking with her on this journey. And most of all I’m asking that she no longer wants to close her eyes and disappear.
Lord, I sharing one of my favorite songs with those that need to hear something spiritually uplifting.
Today I read something or something’s that changed my life. One of the things that transformed my life was the comparison of a word vs. a statement (overwhelmed or in high demand). After reading the informative post, I choose to stop thinking of my life as being overwhelming and view it as a life in high demand. Once I changed the way I saw things I found myself immediately putting into action a plan to manage projects, household, monies, work, love, delegating responsibilities and etc. Guess what? My spirit is more at ease. I can breathe. I can see sunlight at the end of the tunnel [tears].
The hell I was living was the one I created by default. I love my family. I want them to have stress free lives. Sadly my love for them naïvely forced me to take on everyone’s responsibility; and as a result, my life and I became unimportant. The feeling of less than kept me from being the person I want and wanted to be, and as I helped others reach their goals or make their dreams a reality, my soul kept asking “what about me?” Too busy being a mom, wife, friend, sister, daughter, niece, and lord only knows what else to everyone else, I ignored the question. Now I sit in midlife crises! No one can help me because the answers are within me.
My wish to move to Europe and study fashion after high school is a dream lost. My wish to live in Paris for my entire life after high school graduation is a dream lost. My wish to be a successful clothing designer is also lost. My wish to stay a virgin until I met the right guy is a regrettable loss. My wish to marry a man as driven as I was and am is without a doubt the biggest lost. I’m not sure how to give myself new dreams, but I can view things differently in a more positive way. I can make changes to a life unsuccessfully lived one change at a time, one day at a time, as I learn to live the life I never wanted!