Yesterday, I worked without stopping. As a matter of fact, I didn’t take my normal breaks that come with my usual lame excuses. I was truly on fire! Yeah! [Chuckle] I know! I just thought about Alicia Keys’ song “This Girl is On Fire” also.
Gosh, I hope I don’t have that song playing in my head all day. Not that I don’t like it . . . But I just don’t want it playing in my head all day! You know what I mean! I hope I didn’t cause you to start singing ‘This Girl is On Fire’ in your mind either. Laughter! Well back to the subject at hand.
I woke up early this morning but I didn’t rise early but I stayed in bed. I watched a movie I would have never watched had I not had the blues. Truth is I didn’t know I had the blues. It’s been with me for so long that I feel my temporary sad state on Monday mornings is the norm.
Honestly, I just thought I was struggling with a mild case of depression. But what is truly happening is my soul is lamenting over a loss or in my case losses. And when I lost whatever meant so much to me I didn’t mentally and emotionally process the situation(s) to satisfy my soul’s thirst to be spiritually feed. I didn’t supplement things needed for my hungry soul to feel feed in wholeness.
So this morning as I waited for the feelings of sadness to leave I laid in bed and watched a movie that added to my sadness. I wonder how many other people lay in bed on Monday morning. I wonder how many people are faced with sadness of yesterday. I wonder do they realize they have the power to change things for the better despite missed opportunities. I wonder do they ever try to go within their wounded souls and hug the person that loves them.
Until today I never realized why I am sad on Monday mornings. I was once told by a dear and old friend, “Once you know something it gives you power to make changes.” Therefore, the change I am making now is my attitude. I am going to search for reasons within me, all day, about why I should be happy oppose to why I should allow my soul to continue to lament over missed opportunities.
For after all I am blessed and there is no one in my life that I would want to change places with.